Walking to taekwondo tonight was a great feeling. I love walking around on an autumn night
because it is dark yet still warm. Just
sort of relaxing to walk and just think.
I wished I had somebody to walk and talk with but I feel that the night
would pull me into my own thoughts instead of talking to the other person.
I feel that my world is getting smaller. First year obviously made my world a lot
larger. Meeting so many new people from
different countries with different interests really stops a person from seeing the
world with a narrow mind. Now I settled
into my clubs and the crazy amount of work I have. I feel my world is my classes, Newcomb, and
the library occasionally. Many of the
people I talked to last year and who were in my life are now gone; nowadays I
mostly see the same people every day. That
is mostly due to the circumstances of a second year, but it just makes the
world seem smaller.
Of course that isn’t a bad thing to only hang out with a few
people. You only really need a few close
friends, but I still am in the naïve phase that I like to be friends with a lot
of people, have minor conversations and just chill. I’ll grow out of it someday but for now this
is how it is.
When I do meet someone I haven’t seen for a long time, one thing
I really dislike is “yeah let’s have dinner to catch up.” I’m not saying that
they are bad because I would rather have those dinners than not see the person, but I
don’t really like them.
I just don’t know what to say. You have lived without that person in your
life for like a month, then after this dinner you may not see them until
another month. I rather like continual
updates and at every meeting just talk about a few things, but for these
dinners you have to explain everything. It
is like you have to use your time wisely because it is limited, but with a
friend you should be able to talk with them whenever you need to, not just at a
set time.
The energy I have for maintain friends this year either went
down, or the challenge of maintaining them went up. As usual, I am probably just going to now do
anything and let it all happen around me.