Wednesday, May 9, 2012

A Day of Nothing


I rode the morning bus, which I have not done for a long time.  There I saw 9th and 10th graders I knew from elementary school.  It was weird.  In elementary school people were friends with people from different grades.  Elementary school was for six years so I had friends from all across grade levels.  Moving to middle school with only three years, I knew it would be a while before I would see them all again.  We would be like “oh when you are in 12th grade I’ll be in 9th grade, so we can see each other then.” As a child there was some hope that I would see my friends again.  


Well now I’m in 12th grade and I see these old friends, see how they have moved on, see how they don’t value our childhood friendship.  I knew their names and the vague memories of our childhood, but I knew it wasn’t my place to call out their name at the bus stop.  

On a more random note, many people at the bus stop were swatting their hands at the bugs flying around them.  I was walking around and didn’t notice the bugs until I looked up and saw a swarm around me.  Made me realize I look down at the ground most of the time.  

I also actually talked to Casey today on the bus.  Though we ride the same bus I never talk to her, but I did today.  I never ride the bus in the morning so it gave me some sense of belonging.  

Some reason I have a concern for these people taking the AP tests.  

People are so opinionated; I don’t feel like explaining.  

My friend Josh showed me Ted Talks, which is just a website with really smart people talking about really cool topics.  It makes me have some faith in humanity, that some people can change the world for the better.  I wish I could do that, oh well.  

I’m thinking of other stuff but I think I should save that for later.  Oh procrastination, how glorious you are.  I guess I’ll just chill for today and study for the AP Lit test….oh no I have the lit test tomorrow.  Hmm maybe I can’t chill today.  Time to study! (Aka goof off and complain about it to my friends).

1 comment:

  1. I vaguely remember my elementary school days. I think I was more of friends with the kids younger than me during that time, but I had a lot of respect for the older kids and loved them just the same. In 5th grade, I don't think it made much of a difference to me that I was leaving elementary school and that I probably wouldn't see those people anymore. I'm sure that deep down I miss them; I still remember a few of them. But no matter how much time passes, if a person means something at all to me I'll remember them.

    "It makes me have some faith in humanity, that some people can change the world for the better. I wish I could do that, oh well." -- I know I can't be one to talk, but that sounded so negative, so hopeless. Why do people always believe that they can't change the world? I won't lie, I believe that of myself sometimes. Maybe I can't change the world, but that doesn't mean I won't at least try to. Even if I can't change the world, I know that I've changed a few people in some way. You don't have to change the world directly. When you cause a person to change, you have changed the world too.

    ...that took forever to write, too much backspacing and rephrasing.

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