Friday, May 25, 2012

Random Stuff Parte Uno


So I didn’t have any one event to blog about, so here are some random stuff.  

All my memories are in third person.  Don’t ask me why, they just are.  I guess this is more just me editing my memories since I see myself.  It is sort of like a backshot of my head and the event, but sometimes I see snippets of my face, which explains my emotions at the time.  

On a more depressing note, my arm and my book reminds me of pain.  Mental pain is easy to get rid of.  It fades in time, and can be removed with lies to oneself.  That is how I handle it I guess, I don’t remember.  It is all just a mind game when dealing with mental pain.  Physical pain is the real deal.  It doesn’t care what you are thinking.  You can’t just massage it away.  It all depends on the body, which is separate from that mind.  It throbs and hurts indiscriminately.  

Why is it that the end of senior year is the time I have to work the hardest?  Yes this coming from the guy who doesn’t show his face in class a lot.  Too much work, too much I want to do, so hard to do it all.  People who can balance it all are amazing.  I just was trained to do schoolwork, nothing more.  Having things outside that were never in the picture, so I’m pretty lost right now.  I better figure out something before I got to college and get more lost.  

I don’t know why but I don’t like to talk about individual events and make it a blog post.  I only wanted to do that for the DI because that was pretty cool.  I would rather share my thoughts than events of my life.  

Sometimes I’m sad when I don’t understand others.  When they have a talent or hobby I never knew about, I get mad that they didn’t feel like telling me.  You can’t just let be judge you without my having all the facts, think about my feeling sometimes.  (I hope people can understand my sarcasm by now.)  Seriously people, tell me about yourself, it is boring to only explain my views.  

This format of mini-thoughts is cool.  I should use it more often. 

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